} waiting again

i am down with a sore throat ): while waiting for a goat to come online for 11 hours already. it is making me so anxious that i am digging my nails again. shucks D:

i shouldn t have told my mother that i was sick, i was so dying to go to church and now , i don t think i can anymore. ]: but the cold is gone (: only left with the stupid dry throat.and the guy from Toy R us called me :D but i am working on the different day as deborah. i am working alone ): i am so scared. deborah said she will accompany me . oh man.

i think goat have temper? concluded that from his testimonials.
but i don t really give a dam about it now, all i want to do is just

talk to him NOW

} wait.

the morning was long while waiting for him to come online. i still can t control the involuntary action of my heart pumping so fast whenever i think of him. i am still waiting for him now .
gosh, goat. your the first guy that made me so anxious in my whole life . i love the feeling.

oh man, how long do i have to wait.
but he really mean that much :D

deborah, come to church tomorrow :]

} may i cry? because i finally spoke to him.

he emailed me and i added him on msn.
omfg, i seriously don t know how to describe my feelings now . the feelings are so mixed. i am really trying so hard to describe it . holy. yes i am happy but honestly it is more than just that. trust me.i dunno what to say or do. when he emailed me , my hands were shivering and my heart was pumping real fast. omg omg omg.

he just went offline and he left me here alone in mixed emotions.
help me. i really need a hug right now.

before going to suntec, met peipei . she was quite shocked to see me as well. it was quite funny. we crapped all the way until her stop. then she still scold me about starting late for getting a job. haha. i don t think i will make it to the jobinterview at Toys R Us in suntec. There were a lot of people applying for it . The sales application were out . Now i am only left with stock takings. ROAR. better than nothing.

later i was deciding whether should i go for floorball club training. yvonne could not go because her brother was sick and fariza could not go because she had to try out for national trials and sheryl just said plainly she was not going ): other than these 3 people, i really dunno anybody else and in the end i didn t go for club training. then i made a new friend - cheryl :D she really really very nice to talk to and she have the same likings as me la :D we walked from marina square to suntec to marina square and met mac chicken for dinner. took neoprints with mcken :D

took a train down to bugis and walked around till our feet hurts. we queued for sake sushi for 30 minutes and we ate quite a lot :D i really don t understand mcken. he is so skinny lor ): thin , urm just lighter than me by a lot >:( then me and cheryl quickly sat together and forced deborah to sit with mcken. it was so funny. could not stop laughing . later i ate one tempaki and coudln t bite properly and deborah laughed louder. i bet mcken think we are childish >:{ cheryl had to go back later while we go to the arcade and played bishi bashi.

deborah's mom called and told deborah she was grounded and i really want to go to church. i really believe He helped me with Goat.

once again, my heart stopped when i saw his name in my inbox.
i wonder if one day will he make me faint.

}yesterday

went to vivocity with uncle willam , ryan and deborah to watch movies. hehs, uncle willam and ryan went to try out the gold class seats while deborah and I just watched Flyboys. Please go watch Flyboys. it is really that good. really. honestly, i guarantee you :D

before that , had lunch at a high class swenson. the food there are a lil expensive than the normal one. so funny. we asked for so much tata sauce that the waiter said " YOU TUO YI GE TATA SAUCE?!" on our 6th asking.

later uncle willam suggested washing our hair for fun at jean yip. i was so shy but since when did uncle willam became so cool lor :DD this is the first tiem i let a guy wash my hair. :] he keep trying to find things to talk to me . it okay la. i don t mind :D at least he is not as pervertic as the guy in the arcade. he coudln t believe i was 16 . hah! i look mature >:] then later he said something funny which i kept laughing about it for a long time.

guy: if you perm your hair, you will look like japanese

jy: LOL

guy: if you straighten your hair, you will look like taiwanese

jy: LOOOOOOOL. STOP IT LA . LOL.

after the movie, we walked around. oh yeah, now i know what sadiq and raihan is working as now >:D i found the truth.

goat goat goat goat goat goat.

thank you very much.
i really really have that much feelings for you.

} more than just puppy love.

right. i think i am more than just bonkers. it is truely LOVESICK . i can t help it, some nights i dream of goatkiss. Is it really fate or just plain coincidence that he live nearby and there is a 30% chance he would come . shit, my heart is beating so fast. i can t even tell myself if i am happy to see him or sad that i didn t get any contacts of him. i think he knows i have something for him but he is not doing anything about it . my mom said after going through Jc , it is hard for him to look at girls my age. She said when i am 18 and he is 21, he would really take a real proper look at the mature true me . But , 18? that is in 3 years time. that amount of time, does it really make me change so much, does it really make me into a woman? hold me okays? i am just afraid i may not have that 'thing' anymore, in three years time.

it is hard being the youngest at home because no one takes you seriously and you will always have this thinking that people will give way to you. that is the problem, that is not mature thinking. another problem is , i never felt this serious in someone before. however , i know that one day i will be rejected by him, honestly. my mom told me to enjoy this feeling while i can, but this feeling, it somehow feels painful? like knowing he is just there! but you just can t , I just can t .

huay yi stayed overnight my house yesterday and she helped glue my lilo and stitch jigsaw puzzles and we played this club penguin game that i coudln t really let go of because i wanted to catch the big fish and in the end i found the secret of it :D omg, this is immature right. ):

later in the night huay yi sleeptalk which gave me such a bad shock! (note that it is 4 am }:[)

huay yi: What colour you want?

jy: -wake up straight away- Huh?

huay yi: WHAT COLOUR YOU WANT?

jy: omg omg , what thing?

huay yi: i am asking you WHAT COLOUR YOU WANT?

jy: i dunno!!

huay yi: forget it , just sleep.

jy: ...

when i woke her up in the morning and asked her what she meant in the night, she said she don t remember. thank god she don t sleep walk in my house. brought her to school to let her play some floorball. everybody thought she was my lil sister and said there was a slight resemblance. i taught her wrist shot and not bad la she :D later accompany her to run . luckily mr wee didn t scold me :] and even asked her if i bully her. hmp. after that everybody played penalty shot and i asked her to play. i think she had fun la . the boys were exceptionally nice :D they pulled the goalpost down when the goalkeeper was not looking and in the end huay yi scored. it was so funny.

met nana and wen later in the passport phototaking shop. she was wearing her Cedar uniform. i don t like it when the blouse is tucked in. look a lil ' toot' , AHAHA, okays. then we had lunch at 147 coffeeshop and go back to my house and played some computer and did some drawings and then it was time for dinner.

we ate at some china resturant which is so good :D i ate alot lor ): fatty. i ordered blackpepper steak rice and i felt so happy because the steak was soft and not tough and when i bite halfway, i realise the steak was not cooked. i lost my appetide. thier carrot cake is nice :D and urm the xiao long pao and the mango pudding :DD god, if i keep feeling happy everytime something nice melts into my mouth , i think i can t fit into my jeans anymore. uncle tai kit took a really ugly photo of me when i was eating xiao long pao, worse of all he is so tyco to catch me sticking out my tongue at him with all my xiao long pau in my cheeks. he won t let me touch his phone now.

and then we went to marine parade and i brought wen and yi to the arcade and the people at the counter tried getting fresh with me . we played basketball and i told huay wen to help me top up because i don t want to see the guy's face and then she scream and ran towards me and i thought somebody touched her but when i saw what she was pointing at,

my heart stopped.

the way home was seriously emotional and uncle taikit kept rubbing it in.

thanks peipei, gloria and yvonne for the presents . i love it :D

MERRRRY CRIMBOO :D

woot, soon it would be 2007 but i still don t need to go to school on Jan :)
life rocks.

celebrated christmas eve at Cornerstone church in Katong shopping center. i was really really so nervous. i didn t know what to do. i felt like a odd thumb sticking out of no where. when everybody was raising thier hands to God, i felt to awkward to do that . But deborah said i would get used to it . :] After that i was introduced to so many friendly people la :D . i think because i was a newbie there, i didn t receive any presents at all ): but it was okay :D later jian chong shared with me his stories with God. I was quite nervous and shy? LOL to make it worse, i was wearing a skirt. ): i felt a lil uncomfortable lor. And jian chong seriously seriously don t like 24, he is even older than my brother. i thought he was 18 or 19 plus.

sigh, i like the present that kelvin gave to deborah, i was so tempting to eat them.

later we had lunch at this delicious cafe. the black pepper chicken there is so good la :D i can t help but to smile at every bite. then later kok sing sit beside me and ate somebody's unwanted food and he kept laming with me ? but it is okays la . i don t mind (: and then he asked me what school i came from , whether it was mixed or what , and at first he pronouced my name wrong and evelyn corrected him and then he said yeah yeah i knew that one. LOL

then this Evain so cute,

FIRST EXAMPLE.

Kelvin: you see hor evain, deborah is my mei and jingyun is her cousin, that makes her my cousin too.

Evain: HUH really ar, (turn to me ) , are you really kelvin's cousin?

Jy: NO

Kelvin: YES

JY: NOO!

Kelvin: YESS!

SECOND EXAMPLE

Evain poked me and asked if i am Korean.

he is so so so cute la :D cannot stand it .

and kelvin hor, another lamer.

FIRST EXAMPLE

Kelvin: JINGYUN!

jy: Ya?

Kelvin: wo bu yao YA, wo yao JI.

jy: ...

SECOND EXAMPLE

deborah: the bus stop is here.

jy : Where?

kelvin: Here (point to his cheeks)

jy : ...

then later we kinda got lost and we took bus 40 to bedok and took bus 9 to si mei . then my mother told my brother to fetch me from tanah merah station instead . :] later i got scolded from my brother and mother for being so late and everybody eat before us . and my mother somehow like don t approve of me going to church. she is like afraid of something. ): later i still eat again at yi lin house. wah lau can grow fat . we played a round a mahjong , a game of ping pong and watched NANA movie, one quarter of it and we took family photo and opened presents! wow wow wow, i got a cashbank from kaka, a big big notebook which i really love from wen and yi, a book, marley and me from a deborah which i think it is the greatest present, a tigger plushie from ryan, a sexy necklace from ah kim, another sexy necklace and a bracelet from gi kim, a zip zip bag and a ang pow from nana , a eye glazer from school e and the most comical of all , yuan yin gave me fake eyelashes. OMG. everybody laughed . she is so cute la. i asked her is it my eyelashes not long enough or something. so funny. Rocky got his shares in shredding up the wrapping paper.

we went back home at 1am because my dad was tired ):
party pooper.

i won t forget 23rd december and the 9th of august.

} zoo zoo

as we walked to the left,
as we walked to the right,
as we walked , as we walked,
as we walked all night,
with our heels and our toes,
and a half turn about ,
we've found a new found friend :D


i had the worst morning today. deborah and i so badly wanted to bring huay yi go to the zoo today but her ( mang zhang ) mother didn t allow cause she was too busy getting school stuff for huay wen. sigh. deprived childhood. nana was afraid she would get caught in the rain. and guess what, it didn t even rain heavily today! but when we left the house to the zoo, huay yi really really really reallly looked sad. sigh, if i were her, i would have cried. D:

met mac-chicken at AMK interchange. waited so long >:[ luckily he came in time with the bus :D
the journey to the zoo was quite short :D maybe because i was quite excited or something. we finally reached there and i coudln t help but to think back about yvonne's birthday party. yucks!
ate a lil KFC before going in . took a lot a lot of pictures :D

sigh. i still dunno if the false gavial near the entrance is really false. do you know the crocodiles inside are seriously gigantic! the tails are way way fat, like about 50 cm. SO BIG CAN :D i don t like it . it is so scary. i wonder whether i was looking through a macnifying glass of something. the llamas there are very ai swee they actually let you take a picture of them upclose and posing ? Inuka , the polar bear, looked so sian lor ): i think he is going to be sent to another country soon and there will be no more polar bears in our zoo. we went to see the CATS family, the amphibians family, the aviary and some butterfly dome. all the animals are let loose. very very cool :D then, there was this fake frog on the floor and i thought it was real and i screamed. D:

in the end, i could not get anything for huay yi at the souvinier shop. we got lost during closing time.

had dinner later at bishan in the food court. i think bishan should hire better singers :D
and finally i got huay yi a christmas ornament and a blackandwhitepig stickers she really like. my mom said that make her day :D

happy tang yuan day :D


} yesterday.

went with school e , my mother and deborah to the floral exhibition at suntec. very beautiful. :D
deborah and huay yi stayed overnight my place and we made christmas cards :}

} stuck here waiting.


didn t really do much today.
watched Atlantis in the morning and played the computer the whole afternoon after that. too busy having fun with raquel and pauline. later learnt a lil beading session taught by my mom. she wanted me to make something for Kaka because she always get me something for christmas. in the end, i made her a pair of earrings. :D

i actually cooked!
i cooked porridge for dinner and prepared the ingredients :) i am so proud of my achievement! i finally finished one of my jigsaw puzzles. so romantic :D lilo is kissing stitch. i was thinking of goat the whole time i was doing it . man, and my mother actually talk to his mother this afternoon and she told me that after we arrive in singapore that day , some girls asked for his photos. bleurrrrgh. arggggh. bleurh!

was quite pissed at deborah and joanna just now . one can t make up her mind and the other dunno how to explain herself. so at first deborah cancelled her chalet and decided to stay with me instead and then joanna called and plead her to stay at the chalet and deborah was confused. i know she badly want to go but . hmm nevermind, anyway now she decided to stay at my house now :]

going to see some flower exhibition tomorrow. if i didn t see my mother's exasperation, i think i woudln t go with her . ): but flowers are cool :D especially when they are from all around the world!

btw, i heard this really really cool fact:

santa's original clothes colour are actually blackand white but because coca-cola decided to use santa claus as their advertisement and change the colour to red and white and from then on, people recognise santa claus as red and white instead :D

yeah. bet you didn t know that :)

} who's the fairest of them all?

wow. it's been raining a awful lot. i don t even need to on the air condition yesterday and i still can cover myself with a blanket? this shows how cold it is ! it 's been raining from last night until now! woot. i am repeating myself :]

played Tomba 2 this morning and i really put so much effort in it but my brother and I coudln find the memory card so in the end i have to delete everything! like argh, so wasted ):
went out to the new IKEA today and luckily it wasnt crowded . we still can find parking spaces? {a lot of them } omg omg omg , and ikea have really really nice meatballs! they are the only place where i know i can eat my meatball with confidence! :] Mm, love the gravy and the jam. it is so dam good can :D

my mother bought her shelves for the balcony and kitchen and i bought a full-length mirror to put in my room to admire myself 24 hours loong. i dunno what is wrong with my hair style these days, my center parting is showing D: i don t like partings. i don t even want to show any of them, INCLUDING CENTER! bleurgh. maybe it is the weather. maybe.

mr. wee sms today and i think he seem a lil shocked that i am not in the league? i mean there are so many good people in there! i am practically a baby when i go into that club. i think he seriously want me to play because he kept mentioning about division 2 . hmm. but mr. armin didn t even tell me and yvonne about anything regarding to the league. i think we are that bad

i don t like the jigsaws i bought yesterday. they are so thin and breaks up easily.
wonder what am i gonna do tomorrow. i can t always watch movies.

} monsoon season.

i`m finally finally home. just like yesterday, the rain was just as heavy. my entire jeans and sandals were wet! half the time i had to step in deep puddles ): so for those i have bought presents for today must appreciate it ! i shall complain to them in thier christmas cards to make it more sincere and also guilty and pressure on them to get me better presents. hah! :D

man, i am so mean. :}

went downtown today with yi lin and deb. sigh, meet that stupid lady from the `modelling agency` she just won t let me go? in the end i had to give her my number and this is the thrid time she is asking me :{ . i must complain! Yi lin say if i want to model there, i have to make a 300$ portfolio. wth, trying to cheat my money? They are the one that are suppose to pay me for the beautiful photos of me ! dam. i need to call the police :{ tmd.

watched ' trust the man ' . very very funny and a lil on the digusting side but it is ok because it is a NC 16 movie and i QUALIFY :D woot. i don t even need to show my ID card. someone congratulates me please :) before heading into the movie , took neoprints and ate ice cream at cinneleisure. we ordered five flavour but i only like 4 of them ): i don t like anything to do with green tea . So i just ate the brownie, rocky road, caramel fudge and triple chocolate. the art of being sinful :D

went to heeren later to look for males' present. so dam difficult to buy can }:[ one of them is so old fashion and the other one is so hip but still want feminine patterns. in the end , i got him some complicated pattern with a pink dot in it . i hope that is feminine enough. He is not even gay lor ! }:[ dunno what he is trying to prove . i dunno, i just can t stand guys who wear pink. it is just not right. Girls are lucky, they can wear universal colours and they look good and sexy in guys' clothes.

later went to buy xxx for someone . very funny . i was looking at the brown xxx but it didn t seem to have his size then the staff asked me if i needed help. I told him i wanted a bigger xxx for brown and the staff gave me a funny look and told me my (body part) * don t think dirty* werent that big! i told him i wanted to buy for somebody else and then i looked at his (body part) * don t think dirty* and asked for his size because i think someone`s size is the same. wah lau. this is getting so horny }:[ but it is not okays. So he smiled at me and gave me the size. I told the staff i would look around and after that i brought deborah with me and she told me it was fine! So i took that particular size and went to the counter. The staff smiled at me and said this was his size. I think i laughed quite loud because what he said wasn t really necessary but who cares. he kept staring at me after that.

have fun guessing :D
( in a clean way okays )

btw, it is not for a boyfriend, i don t have one , it just someone i am REALLLLLLLLLY close to.
even till the day i die :)

had sushi for dinner at heeren and headed down to taka later for yi lin to buy her boots. it looks really good and sexy :D btw, do you guys argee with me that the New Urban Male`s staff are good looking ? Are they really hire for their looks ? nevermind , later it was seriously pouring on my home. so depressing to walk alone especially in this weather. At least i don t think emo, like " i love to walk in the rain so no one can see my tears " holy crap .

bought 2 jigsaws to entertain myself and nobody wants to go out with me tomorrrrrow .
sigh. ):

} caramel`s death anniversary.

just came back from floorball training at Republic Poly. Yes, i finally made a decision to go. Going there was a problem. It was raining so heavily that my mother , brother and i got into a arguement. In the end i got my way :D i mean if i knew my way to RP, i would probably let them fetch me . However i didn t know anything, isn t it better to get the full information first and then you guys can fetch me the second time? sigh. it is the rain man, the rain

gathering at deborah`s house yesterday. nothing much. went back home at 11. i think half the time we were eating? so i killed yesterday`s calories by today`s training. i am all balanced now :D Coach scolded Yvonne and I today because we didn t understand one part of the drills. BUTTT, later he was nice enough to give us a koala bear magnet from australia. he said my koala bears were homosexual because one of them was on top of the other. i just laughed

anyway i dreamt that i wanted to eat pizzahut pizza today but my mother didn t let me get it . When i woke up , i was seriously craving for it and i ran down to tell my mother to go and order. She thought i was nuts and sleepwalking at first but we still ate pizzahut pizza - pepperoni flavour for lunch :) mMm.

yes. my father is going China again! :DDD
going to meet Yi lin and Deborah at orchard tomorrow. thank you that it is late in the afternoon if not i will be late again. Most of the time in Japan trip, people had to wait for us . I bet they think we are a nuisance. Anyway i can get somemore presents tomorrrrrow :)

{bless Caramel`s soul}

btw, it doesn t really matter to me now that i am not playing in the league :l

} have a jolly christmas :D

hey. this blog is collecting cyber dust. haven t really been updating it since i come back from Japan :x i just don t have the mood now . oh well, i just guess i try now . anyway my christmas list of giving to people is adding ): but christmas is all about giving and receiving :D i just hoped i will receive more ! hah!

went to watched a movie , The Holiday, with deborah yesterday. Pretty comical. Later went to buy christmas presents! Almost half of my list is checked . friggin happy. however , i still haven t got anything for the most important people in my life ): nevermind , monday monday monday! ahah, so shocked that jian wei got me a present already. it is the first christmas present i got from him after being his cousin for 16 years. he keep hinting to me he wants a brown shirt with feminine pattern. i don t like that ): since when was he gay? oh wait, one time he wore this shirt saying " i am your private dancer " hm. sometimes he can be so MAN.

japan trip was alright . seriously enjoyed myself there, except for the thrid day though. i vomitted ): but nevermind, lust from afar overcome alllll! i fell in front of him . friggin pai seh. thank god i didn t wore a skirt. i really kiao kah until i can t kiao kah anymore. Also, one time i thought i knocked on nanas door but it turned out to be his. i didn t even comb my hair. argh. #@$#$%#$%. dam it! oh yes. i finally saw, touched snow! i made a snowangel, snowball and a snowman. right. one of my dreams come true! (heart shape)

there is floorball training tomorrow. i honestly dunno whether should i go. i mean i am not in the league team and sigh. everything is so complicated and i thought going into club would solve everything. guess i am wrong about this one. besides , it is not as if i don t have time for the training, it is just me towards the people there. It is not there i have anything against them , it is just uncomfortable. the trouble of making new friends.

this blog is lagging. it makes my typing goooooo slooow. i wanted to change blog initially but the new version is crapping me off. so i shall stick with this.

listen to the new japanese song :D
heard it on the ANA flight .
love it :D